Why do people change?
Why do friends fall apart from one another?
Why is it when you think you truly know someone a superficial behavior/person draws you apart?
is it jealous? a want? a need?
could something in their life be missing and you aren't what they need anymore?
It has been almost two years since i've lost one of my best friends. i took her to boyce park to teach her how to snowboard one night--that night she took two HARD falls: one on her head another on her heart. ever since that night i feel i haven't known the same person and the rest of my friends can agree with that. we used to be like sisters--sharing everything with one another. even dating another pair of best friends our Junior year of high school--oh the memories with the mooners! hah-whose turn is it for a nose bleed now?!? we were practically inseparable we even almost drove to Virginia one night because i was so frustrated and relax by driving--i could just get away from everything and anything and with your best friend by your side what could go wrong?
Maybe there was something that this boy provided that her longtime friends do not. we dont' see it...and feel like she doesn't think she did anything wrong-just us in the wrong. i guess he love her in someway we can't, but i wish she is with someone who appreciates her more...than this one.
This still weights heavy on my mind and heart..maybe because when you know someone for 9ish years they really grow on you. she's a smart girl we have faith that maybe one day she'll realize whats going here and Wake Up!
Personally, when i lose my closest friends and their friends parents for a significant other...i'd probably ask myself whats going on here? that doesn't seem to be beneficially physically, emotionally, and socially by any means. but everyone is open to their own ideas and interests, right? right!
you can't get caught up on things like this though. if you know you're storng you know you can move past it and "just SMILE" like Barry always makes me do before we hang up the phone or talking in any means.
Honesly, it makes you feel 150% better when you just smile or laugh....it may seem cheesy, but seriously try it. its great therapy. like even Hillary does it during debates...so it has to be alright :)
Phew....that feels better, plus only 2 more hours till nap time on the bus00who would have thought 4th grade math would have been so exciting? did you know that the largest number in a division problem is the dividend?
haha..i wrote this at like 12 noon when i was bored observing today!
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